In A Fog

Hi all! Today is my “uncertain day.” I imagine from time to time we all experience them. Things are moving but slowly. Mon. I was on top of the world because I finally finished 3 items for my Etsy shop. They took me longer than expected which is some of the reason it’s taken me a while to post but I finally finished them. (I’ll post them later under my projects tab.) But anywho, I was super excited. Had a belief that I could finally move on to the next thing! Woohoo! Right? Well sorta, kinda, maybe. True, I finished something on Etsy, but then I went to Marmalead which is a tool I use to help me with my Etsy listings. It tells me that my listings are okay but not great. They give you a grade ranging from A to D. Well mama got a C- on two and a D on the other. A D?! I know you don’t know me very well but a D, heck even a C, will not stand. I want an A or at least a B-. So I go into OCD mode and spend another day that I shouldn’t, trying to figure out the ends and outs of that mess resulting in a lost day to move on to my KDP stuff. A day spent with no positive end result because my internet, which is normally as strong as an ox, decides to go kaput on me. It seemed to be on my phone but not my beloved IPad. 😩 Ai yi yi.

So I kept trying to cheer myself up during the fiascos that kept coming at me left and right by checking to see what sales I made that day. Surely some silver lining, huh? Zip, zilch, nada. In layman’s terms not a darn thing. My sighs are adding up. And lookit, I know I just started this journey. I know, I might not see things happening as fast as my “I want it right now” brain wants it to. I get it. But some days I will feel defeated and uncertain about how things will turn out. Now, later and beyond. And if you’re going through something new too you will too. I hope you don’t, but you will. There’s a scary unsureness. You feel as if you’re on one of those hamster wheels moving at the speed of light and going nowhere fast. Spinning your wheels on something that you should have handled by now but you have one more thing to do or something unexpectedly goes haywire before you can progress. That’s when you have to take a step back, take in a deep amount of O2, exhale (please, I don’t want you passing out on me) and look at what you have accomplished. Take the time to smile and say at least I got this done. Or at least I made this amount so far. Yesterday, I went to the grocery store bought what I needed and spent less than I thought. Not related to a side hustle exactly but I felt good about saving my savings since I…well, you know, ditched my 9-5. I also noticed, maybe not yesterday but the day before I did sell another book from one of my KDP books (check out my Graph Paper Composition Notebook). A couple of months ago I couldn’t have said that but I sold an actual flipping book! Who wouldn’t be happy with saying that? What have you accomplished today, no matter how big or small? What didn’t you? How’d you feel about that? And another question, I always ask myself, could you have done it better or more efficiently? If so, figure out its process and do it right the first time until it becomes second nature. We got this!

I’m still confused on a lot, I mean…A LOT, of things but I have to believe I’m on a good path with the things that ARE happening. And I must keep going. So should you! I started to skip exercising today because of my foggy mood but thanks to you, I’m gonna get to it! It could be the only thing I can accomplish today. Ha! I can see through that fog a little bit better now. Thanks, ….um…Blog. Since I have no readers yet, I’ll just say Blog. 🙂